my colored picture in a world of black and white

August 4, 2009. That's the day my marriage ended. That's the day my life ended.

I'll be gone within 24 hours, one way or the other. And since everything I "own" he bought (my money always went to bills) I doubt I'll have a computer to keep in any contact. Or much of anything else, really.

Never again. For better or for worse... Yeah.

Why am I always the only one that ends up taking things seriously? Why am I always the only one that really loses out in the end?

Frail
Jars Of Clay


Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seems to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide

Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

...frail

HERE

1. What is your favorite vegetable? Corn.
2. What is your favorite salad dressing, sauce, gravy, or condiment? Chicken gravy.
3. What is your favorite culture's food (American, Chinese, Creole, Indian, Italian, Mexican, Soul Food, Southern U.S., etc.)? American.
4. What is your favorite beverage? Orange juice.
5. What is your favorite food? Chicken "stuff" which is cubed chicken breast put into cream of chicken soup, herbs, a little butter, and baked for 1 - 1 1/2 hours.

Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 16:02 @fyarr Humidity needs to DIAF. Srsly. #
• 16:03 @fyarr You do it so well. ;) #
• 16:07 @fyarr Doodie? #
• 17:00 @free_iz_me *hides* #
• 17:01 @fyarr Awww, but we can have glowing children! Oh, wait.. #
• 17:04 RT @NathanFillion: Here's the Saber link:www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVV9q4rESPg Enjoy. #
• 17:05 @free_iz_me :D #
• 17:06 My Twitter personality: likeable sociable cautious My style: chatty coherent SOCIALITE twanalyst.com/elfennau #
• 17:32 Going out with @fyarr tonight. Just out to Walmart, but doing it without the kids is awesomesauce. Almost never happens. >.> #
• 21:19 @LodurZJ Yeah, I have to agree with you. #
• 21:20 Mmm, chicken with a side of chicken for dinner. It was sooooooooooo good. #
• 22:26 @amyty I'm so sorry. #
• 23:03 @fyarr @free_iz_me Y'all're funny to watch. #
• 09:26 @ThatKevinSmith Congrats! #
• 09:36 Made some userbars yesterday. >.> twurl.nl/zht8ms #
• 13:46 @regent_lord Call it "Boozin'" #
• 14:02 @regent_lord To be fair, you DO speak of drinks a lot. ;) #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 09:57 RT @amyty: Tweets in Spaaaaace! -Kermit-flail- twurl.nl/gayx8f #
• 09:57 RT @InnerSanctumEU: Grunty the Murloc Marine: bit.ly/RArth -- I WANT. #
• 10:20 My gnome warlock's pet collection: twurl.nl/gnddth #
• 11:40 I <3 Oxhorn vids. Inventing Swear Words 5: twurl.nl/2p86ql #
• 12:19 Ugh, FINALLY remembered to reset my MSN password. I missed talking to the whole one person I had on MSN. >.> #
• 12:34 RT @brigwyn: you guys have to see this done by @greyseer twurl.nl/4dt6mp -- CUDDLE ME YOGGY, I WANTZ! *squee!* #
• 12:38 Spammers hit up my Sempiternal site, CuteNews and forum specifically. I guess I have to figure out how to get rid of it and lock it down. :/ #
• 12:39 And just when I was finally feeling motivated to finish getting it cleaned up and polished for casual recruitment. Now, just depressed. ;_; #
• 13:27 @fyarr Which tells us...um...nothing. *makes note to ask later* :) #
• 13:29 @fyarr :( #
• 13:33 @omgitsafox Essentially, "do you understand?" #
• 13:35 @omgitsafox Hmm. Or ken is see. Depending on how exactly its used. #
• 15:17 WoW obsessions: Gnomes, Sin'dorei, dragons. Hmm. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 16:58 @fyarr An update, just for you. :) #
• 17:14 @fyarr Phone won't let me call out, I need to talk to you before you come home please. Somehow. :/ #
• 17:51 WoW: Someone I know had his account hacks, and the guild bank looted. Not my guild, but I feel bad for the people involved. :( #
• 19:14 @fyarr Yes, this. #
• 22:31 @Nebachanezar And I would reply l2readsoldout tinyurl.com/5g873l #
• 11:11 @Nebachanezar Not everyone wants/can afford the new iPod, or Iphone. =oP #
• 11:50 RT @LodurZJ: Dave Arneson, co creator of Dungeons and Dragons died =( www.aintitcool.com/node/40708 Sad day. #
• 15:56 @fyarr I WANT. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 20:26 @demented_pants Hmm. Is tweeting blogging though? *ponder* #
• 20:29 @demented_pants Huh. If I could do it away from my comp, I'd prolly do it. Unlike SOME people, I haven't a cellphone. *eyes @fyarr* #
• 20:33 @fyarr <3 #
• 20:33 RT @mattycus: New five mans on the way: is.gd/tYXl #
• 20:58 RT: @stoneybaby: [A] Muradin <Unorthodox> LF 1-2Warlocks & Holy Priest. Raid M-Th 7p-10pCST. Progression but not hard-core. RT apprec #
• 09:52 I just have to say, @fyarr is the most awesome husband in the entire universe. ^_^ #
• 10:57 Lungs: *wheeze wheeze wheeze* Me: omg I just want to BREATHE kthx. Lungs: *smug wheeze* #
• 14:33 The secret of getting started is breaking your complex, overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one." #
• 14:34 Mark Twain, btw. #
• 15:29 @fyarr Mmm. I still think you saw what I did there. ^_^ #
• 15:45 @fyarr Hey, I badly fall asleep all the time. =oP #
• 15:45 @free_iz_me See, that's exactly what I think of when I see "badly fall asleep." #
• 15:53 @fyarr Wait. Isn't it the sworn duty of the female of the species to freak out the make of the species? >.> #
• 15:55 @fyarr Male, too. Holy crap. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 09:08 @nuchtchas Awesomesauce. #
• 09:11 Nice anniversary yesterday just hanging out. Got a beautiful necklace & card from Travis, nearly cried. <3 them <3 Travis. He's the bestest. #
• 09:12 And thanks to everyone that wished us a happy anniversary. It was one. :) #
• 10:43 Dear littlecaesars.com, update your site with the new Warren store plzkthx. >.> #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 17:41 Long day is long. #
• 18:40 @The_Prophet Nethergrain? Nethercow? #
• 18:57 @The_Prophet Lots of people still go to Kara for achievements. Just not a lot of gnomes in the groups. They smell funny. #
• 19:50 "Where's Daddy? Will he be home in the 'morrow morning?" Meh. #
• 21:06 No WoW tonight. It just...didn't interest me anymore. Its too lonely. #
• 23:05 11pm. I've heard nothing. I told you so. #
• 23:49 Got my answer at least. About a lot of things. Sometimes, I hate being right. Meh, going to bed now. #
• 02:55 Sleeplessness = suck. That is all. #
• 10:21 Cough cough go away, don't ever fucking come back another day. No love, a very tired Bran. #
• 12:32 @wowgrrl A -mere- 2.6k dps? LOL #
• 12:36 @wowgrrl Yeah, but to be fair, that boss was also tuned for people in Naxx25+ gear. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 18:09 @mattycus Finding the truth. :) #
• 18:09 RT @fyarr: National Cleavage Day. There's NOTHING wrong with that at all. Good day, good day. tiny.cc/vC9Vv -- El Oh El. #
• 18:11 Ah music, how I <3 you. Listening: "Wishmaster" by Nightwish. :D #
• 15:41 @fyarr Happy anniversary to you too. LOVE YOU! #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 17:57 @mattycus I dunno. Some other game, I'm sure. #
• 11:07 @amethystdawn <3 #
• 11:07 Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 23:07 @amyty YAY! #
• 23:07 Dear headache, DIAF. *cry* Sleep attempt now, though I don't think it'll happen. :( #
• 08:26 @omgitsafox Ladyhawke = win. #
• 09:09 @amyty Where do you play? #
• 09:14 @amyty Mostly Cenarion Circle, but I have characters scattered around to play with other people I know too. =oP #
• 11:37 RT @wow_extreme: Blizzard to Create New MMO Based on New Frachise - Zeropaid twurl.nl/4443st #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 07:59 RT @mattycus: LF [A] Enh Shaman and Lock for Ulduar 25. Tu, Th, Sa, Mo. 6-9 PM PST. Loot council. Ner'zhul, PvP. Gear ideal, not req. Plz RT #
• 08:06 @warchief_thrall Oh, good point. Hrm. #
• 08:09 @free_iz_me Confusion is my constant companion. #
• 08:10 I may browse teh intarwebz too much. Metal bras anyone? #
• 08:11 Grr, link. Again. twurl.nl/n5sc0w <-- Metal bras. Uh huh. Ow? #
• 08:32 @fyarr inorite?? #
• 08:37 "If there's a guild out there who has a few lesser raiders carried along ...Ulduar's likely to cause some friction." Schramm on Ulduar #
• 08:38 That may be the first thing he's ever said that makes good sense. And moreso, that I agree with. #
• 08:50 @fyarr ISEEWHATUDIDTHAR. #
• 08:52 Scourge Chat Logs: twurl.nl/zcaf3x twurl.nl/krrehy twurl.nl/04qi8j -- Funny stuff. #
• 08:53 Also. >8< spider pride! That is all. :) #scourgechatlogs #
• 08:53 @fyarr Lies! Lies and slander! >.> #
• 09:49 @cirix I do from time to time, but I ran across the metal bras via twitter. I tend to look at a link, then another from that, and so on. >.> #
• 10:50 @free_iz_me I would have to agree. #
• 12:53 @free_iz_me 42 is the answer to everything. *solemn nod* #
• 13:45 Hmm. I got into the Free Realms beta. Upside: Looks cute and diverting. Downside: Its SOE. Hmm. #
• 14:29 @nuchtchas Good luck with it. I've watched a couple struggle with it for well over two years. :( #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 16:55 In a Naxx10 on my hunter. Once again, the T7 shoulders elude me. :/ Least I'm having fun. :D #
• 17:56 @lilbitosideways *huuuuug* #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 16:36 Like TV? (Merlin this week.) Like icons? Go vote. :) twurl.nl/x7m8qm #
• 19:07 @amethystdawn *hug* #
• 21:53 @fyarr :( #
• 10:06 @WowRelief Alliance is awesome. But...well, our leaders suck. :) #
• 10:15 @mattycus O.O #
• 10:32 SuperSecret Launching Tween World Today twurl.nl/bzmnhv #
• 10:39 WoW: Ground whelps again for an hour and a half. Then THREE other people came. /sigh #
• 10:42 @isheepthings I've heard rumours from all the sites, never seen any confirmed though. And never had any problems personally. AV progs ftw. #
• 10:43 Dear insanejournal, plz 2 be loading for me kthx. :( #
• 11:01 @ThatKevinSmith Misogyny?? Someone is using words without knowing their proper meaning, me thinks. Lulz. #
• 14:02 @fyarr Awww. *kisses the icky away* #
• 14:07 @warchief_thrall Mooneyes give it away every time. :) #
• 14:30 @fyarr Finally. #
• 14:45 @fyarr *hug* #
• 15:14 RT @wow_extreme: Blizzard gets an F at the BBB twurl.nl/avsotx -- Looks like QQers got themselves organized. /eyeroll #
• 15:48 MMO social networking meets GaiaOnline. At least, that's what comes to mind. #
• 15:48 Oh hey, the link would help, eh? fragegg.com/ #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 19:09 WoW: #goodbyeBRK Good luck and best wishes. #
• 19:09 @mattycus Gothic Rock, last I saw. :) #
• 19:10 @mattycus Or "Awesome", either works. #
• 19:15 @mattycus Much love for Nightwish. Lacuna Coil falls under the same genre, too. Theatre of Tragedy, Tarja Turunen too. #
• 21:22 @free_iz_me :( #
• 21:27 RT @nuchtchas: RT @tabz: Andy Hallet (Lorne on Angel) dies at age 33 tinyurl.com/dd4zqk -- :( :( #
• 08:20 @Oxhorn That's been going on for years, and judging from the past, it will continue for many more years. #
• 10:33 @nuchtchas Yeah, I never understood that attitude either. :( #
• 10:34 Trav is home sick today. I feel crappy. Its just a crappy day all around. Bleh. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 14:19 Oh look. I remembered to check twitter. After two days. Did I mention I'm sick? Yeaaahhh. :/ #
• 14:23 @fyarr Nah, I <3 Twitter a lot. I've just felt too sick to make sense of all the information presented to me. Sadz panda. #
• 14:37 @nuchtchas If you do something someone doesn't like, you're threatening their very way of life. Didn't you KNOW that? *mock shocked gasp* #
• 14:38 @fyarr ... *sigh* #
• 14:39 Yeah, @fyarr is such a geek. I get an IM from him: "Star Trek Star Trek Star Trek Star Trek Star Trek Star Trek!!!!" x a lot. I lul'd. #
• 14:41 @fyarr The getting a burrito thing. And what it means for me tomorrow afternoon and night. :/ #
• 14:42 I just want the world, or the small portion of it that reads this, to know this: I love my geeky-assed husband very damn much. That is all. #
• 14:46 @fyarr *headdesk* *yes, to both replies* #
• 14:58 @fyarr I do. Oh, how I do. :) #
• 14:58 @free_iz_me You shoot me and at the same time I'll shoot you. Work? :) #
• 15:12 @free_iz_me Ew, morning. The light, it burns. #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 18:03 I'm realizing I don't play the game for the "right" reasons. And if I don't...can't...then maybe I just shouldn't play at all. #
• 22:25 RT @30SECONDSTOMARS: A little challenge..we have 11,270 "followers" as of now. Not bad. Let see if we can make it 100k by july.Think we can? #
• 22:31 @wilw It just proves you're made of win. Still, gotta be pretty freaky. #
• 04:16 @LodurZJ You and everyone else. =oP #

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Today, fresh from Twitterland:

• 21:52 No matter how much I feel shit on, in the end somehow I'm always the one in the wrong. FML. #
• 21:58 Also. Crying = headache = much ftl. #
• 05:27 I haven't slept, couldn't. Its 5:26am. I probably won't sleep now, since the kid will be up in a couple hours or less. Gods, I'm so tired. #
• 12:35 @lilbitosideways I wish I did. :( #

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